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    March 10, 2010 – 5 month anniversary

    Fred and I have been married five whole months today. In that five months we have been busy remodeling and recovering. I’m ready to move forward. I went to the doctors today. I have a slew of appointments next week for bloodwork and the like as I prepare for a new adventure in body shaping. Oh yes, I’ve gained 30 pounds back since the wedding. Good grief! Now for you thin folks that may seem like a huge amount, but really, it’s pretty typical for me to lose and gain that much in a short amount of time. It’s like…

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    Courage in battling eating disorders

    Courage in battling eating disorders Posted using ShareThis Click on the link about to read a story that was in the Enquirer. It really hit me. I think people look at those with anorexia as sympathetic creatures who are dying for beauty’s sake. I don’t think people look at the obese in the same way. We tend to be the ones that people mock and judge as having character flaws, lack of discipline and we should be ashamed. People with anorexia are thought to be sick, they need help. So do the obese. Psychological, physical and wholistic help. My obesity…

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    The room complete, now for me – March 8, 2010

    Fred and I have finished the “man-cave” and I am really happy. The room is anything but caveish. I wish we had taken “before” pictures. Every time I look at the fireplace I smile. It was hideous before. I hated it so much I wouldn’t let anyone in the basement to see what was there. Besides the mess of the office, the fireplace was disgusting. Now, it’s beautiful. This picture above does not do it justice, but it will give you an idea of what it looks like. We are very pleased with the results. Last night we played Wii…

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    Tired after sleeping – February 22, 2010

    It’s Monday morning. Fred spent all day yesterday working on the “man cave”. It has become a beautiful room. I’m very proud of him for working so hard to make it so. I’m tired for him. It’s like I did the work, but I sat on the couch mostly watching him. I’m in a great deal of pain. I don’t know why. When I get up and move about, the pain gets worse. I know I have fibromyalgia, but this is wearing me out. I keep chalking it up to winter. Maybe when spring comes my energy will return. I…

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    Going up – Feb. 13, 2010

    Another week, another few pounds added on. My face is puffy. My knee is hurting worse than it did before the surgery. I hope I haven’t injured myself again. I refuse to have any further surgery. I will suffer as long as I am able. Tomorrow is Valentines Day. My husband has been painting the “man-cave” and it’s getting prettier by the minute. I am so happy in my life. I love Fred bunches. But, I’m back in the mode of “I don’t deserve to be happy or loved by him because I’m too big.” It’s stupid to think like…

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    Snowy day – Sunday, Feb. 7, 2010

    I really do like winter. We have about 4-6 inches of beautiful white on the ground. It is pretty. I’m grateful I don’t have to drive to work in it this morning. I’m working remotely from home. That is a wonderful gift of technology. One for which I am most grateful. Fred has gone out to GLE to shovel sidewalks. I’m sure he will be home in plenty of time to watch the Super Bowl from the comfort of his “forming” Man-Cave. The mess that was once in the basement is now officially obliterating the pretty office we made out…

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    Amazing little miracle – January 30, 2010

    Do you know how small the world really is? I sit in the middle of the newsroom of the Kentucky Enquirer. I hear reporter, Mark Hansel, talking about two men who went to help an orphanage in Haiti. It’s quite a story. I didn’t stop working to hear what he was telling our assistant editor, Dave. Today I open the nky.com website and there is the story. http://nky.cincinnati.com/article/AB/20100129/NEWS0103/1300358/NKY+men+recount+Haiti+work What is fascinating is that in these weeks following the Haitian tragedy, I have had the photo album of the trip laying out on my desk. I look at the photos and…

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    Weirdness giving way January 28, 2010

    OK I’ve really had it with myself now.  I think this blog is just a whine zone.  Enough already.  For the last three weeks I’ve been writing to my son-in-laws grandmother everyday.  I felt like God was asking me to do this. On New Year’s Day, she had a serious fire in her home. She has been displaced and is living with her son’s family. She is a delightful person. She is one of the most devout Catholic women I’ve ever known.  She didn’t want any fuss made and we were asked to “stay away.”  I prayed about that and felt…

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    Starving chidren. Fat Mary Lu. January 27, 2010

    More news from Haiti. People are not getting the food and water they need in the countryside. Skirmishes and panic add to the frustration of the families trying to care for their young. I got a fill in my band today – so I won’t overeat. ….but I still do. Now what in the hell am I thinking?  What in the hell am I doing? My belly is swollen like the starving children.  The doctor says it’s scar tissue from 4 abdomenal surgeries.  It has taken on a life of it’s own.  We could use it to play basketball.  I…