Have I mentioned that I have awesome friends? They dressed me up and took me to Brio’s for a Bachelorette Party. It was lovely. Don’t you love the veil? I was a little tired, but we enjoyed the evening. Yesterday I went for the final dress fitting. I am more than ecstatic to report it fit better than I ever imagined it would. Having the “pet rock” hernia removed and all the pain of the last month at least brought something good!

Laura McCafferty, Emily’s sister-in-law and renowned professional costumer, is creating the dress alterations. She actually wanted to take it in two inches. NO WAY! I know she says its best for fit, but I’ve got to say the comfort of the dress was wonderful and I told her no. Such a difference from the first wedding dress I wore. That one had to be let out by 4 inches on either side. I’m excited that the dress looked great and I felt rather pretty in it.

I hope Fred likes it. After seeing me with drainage tubes sticking out, vomit spewing out of me, bad breath, and matted hair, I’m sure my look on Saturday will be a big improvement. (ha ha)

Fred’s news was all good. He’s back to work, counting down the days to our big wedding day.

Friends and family are coming from across the country. It’s pretty exciting. There are some people we are wishing we would have been able to invite. Is it too late to ask? hmmmm.

Fred has given his cough and sore throat to me – and we haven’t even been close enough to kiss in the last few weeks. I reckon just breathing the same air will do it. One more week and we will both be healthy, right????

Fred is a saint. He prepares breakfast, lunch and dinners, cleans the critters, gets the mail, washes the laundry. He’s wonderful. How did I get to be so lucky?

I am watching a rerun of “Touched by an Angel” and am listening to Wynonna Judd sing the song “I Will Testify to Love” It is quite a touching song in many ways. As you may recall, Touched by an Angel story lines were almost always about death. I find the stories comforting. I sure wish we knew what really happens when we die. Are we just dust or is there a spirit that continues to nourish us in the beyond?

I have been thinking about Mike an awful lot lately. I think being so sick, then seeing Fred hit the floor, has made me reflect even more about the ebb and flow of life. I am so lucky to have been blessed with two remarkable men who love me. Life is precious. No matter the wrestling of knowing there is a God or if we are but dust, one thing I do know is that our connection to one another through love is amazing. It’s energy is infinite. It crosses boundaries of life and death. I loved Mike fiercely. I love Fred wholly. Emily is my heart. Family is my soul. Friends are the laughter that brings us out of dark sadness. Life is good.

All the colors of the rainbow
All the voices of the wind
Every dream that reaches out
Reaches out to find where love begins
Every word of every story
Every star in every sky
Every corner of creation lives to testify

Chorus:
For as long as I shall live I will testify to love
Be a witness in the silences when words are not enough
With every breath I take I will give thanks to God above
For as l shall live I will testify to love
From the mountains to the valleys
From the rivers to the seas
Every hand that reaches out
Every hand that reaches to offer peace
Every simple act of mercy
Every step to kingdom come
All the hope in every heart will speak what love has done